This is the first Christmas without our beautiful girl. I put the Christmas tree up because I knew Kelly would want me to. She would always get excited and be asking when we were going to do it. I did it for her but found it very emotional as was writing the Christmas cards without her name. The last week at school was really hard but I am very fortunate to work with an amazing team of people who are so understanding and supportive. The reality of Christmas without Kelly hit home and was hard to imagine. I found a little Christmas tree with baubles on that Keith and I took to the cemetery along with some beautiful silk flowers that Sally Holmes arranged for us. Since Kelly was born we have always had Christmas day at home just the three of us. Keith and I couldn't face being at home this year and wanted to run away from Christmas altogether, but that's not what Kelly would want. We are going to spend Christmas with my sister and her family. There will be very emotional times but they will understand. We are hoping that fond memories will give us comfort and not pain. We are trying hard to follow the sentiments of the poem Keith read out at the funeral and I posted as a thought on this site. We are trying to "Do what she would want; smile, open your eyes, love and go on." We remain very grateful to family, Aaron's family, friends and friends of Kelly's who have continued to support us.