I think over the last year things have started to get a bit easier. We have smiled more and cried less. The significant event of the year was the court case. We knew that whatever the outcome it would have an impact on everyone. We were part of a large group of friends and family who were there to support Aaron and I believe that Kelly was there with us all. It was an emotional rollercoaster over the three days.It was upsetting being taken back to that terrible night and hearing the prosecution try to blame Aaron for the accident. It was especially difficult seeing Aaron get emotional when asked about Kelly and saying she was 'the one'. The judge was clearly sympathetic towards Aaron and I think, like us, couldn't believe that it had even come to court. The jury were only out for half an hour before their not guilty verdict. The judge told Aaron that she could not imagine what he had been through and that we will never know what happened that night but that it was not his fault! The relief to all of us was immense. Aaron continues to be part of our family and we feel part of his family too. We know that none of them will ever forget Kelly. April saw my 60th birthday. Lots of different celebrations went on with different groups of friends and Keith took me to Prague for 3 days. The final celebration was with 20 close friends and family. One significant person was missing. I made a little speech to thank everyone for their ongoing support but got too emotional and was unable to raise a toast to Kelly. Keith stepped in and we all raised a glass to her. In the summer term at school the children were going to perform The Wizard of Oz. One morning in assembly 'Somewhere Over the Rainbow' was played for the first time and I went to pieces. It is a special piece of music that reminds me of Kelly. When she was about 3 years old and I was putting her to bed, she would say "Sing to me mummy" and that's what I would sing. It was the reason we played it at her funeral and we have it on this site. It's moments like that that catch you completely unawares and all the emotions that you keep inside come flooding to the surface.I am so lucky that I work with a fantastic group of people who are there for me at difficult times. We were amazed at the number of tributes left at Kelly's memorial on her 19th birthday and 2nd anniversary 3 weeks later. Its lovely that so many friends remember. Keith and I went off to The Olympics for a few days. Kelly would have loved it. Again we felt that she was with us in the Olympic park. We got there early and whilst having a coffee waiting for the athletics stadium to open, we heard 'Wonderwall' and 'Angels' played both special to us. Keith and I went off to France for a couple of weeks and enjoyed touring around Brittany and Normandy. It was lovely spending time together and we came back rested and relaxed. My dad had spent a month in hospital and is now in a home so my mum has been experiencing a form of grief. My dad will never come home and she is having to learn to live without him. During last year The Rutland Rotary raised some money to build a garden in our new school. As the President is a friend of ours they wanted to make it in Kelly's memory. Kelly had been a pupil at the school and the school took this on board and made some additional funds available and employed a designer. We had moved into the new building in September 2011 and the old school had been demolished. I was talking one day to a teacher about the garden and she mentioned that there was a file of childrens ideas for the sensory garden that was built in the old school some 9 years previously. I knew that Kelly had done a design and after a bit of searching her design sheet was found. The designer was able to take the elementss of her design and base the garden around it.A beautiful stone The garden is beautiful. It was official blessed and opened in September. Kelly's memory will live on in our school. During the year a number of fundraising events took place in Kelly's memory raising money for the local Air Ambulance. The biggest event was a Darts Marathon back in July. 12 darts player including a number of Aaron's family and friends plus Keith(who is not a darts player) played darts non stop for 12 hours at our local pub. The sponsorship, raffle, donations and cake sale raised £1200. A total of £2,200 was rasied over the year. Christmas came round again and a major decision had to be taken. My sister had a houseful this year so we couldn't go there as we had for the previous 2 years. We decided to face our first Christmas at home withou Kelly and did everything much as we would always have done. We were quite worried but in the end things weren't as bad as we thought they might be. We were invited to Aarons grandparents late afternoon with Aaron and all his family. They made us very welcome and very much part of the family. We also spent New Year's eve with them. Although emotional it was not as bad as last year. So life goes on. We still miss Kelly every day but we keep ourselves busy and try to enjoy life in a way that we think she would want us too. She will always be in our hearts and remain a very important part of our lives. God bless you Kelly xXx